Today was a very exciting day for me. Completed isn't the right word. Up to date is more like it. As life goes on, there will be more I will need but for now, for now my collection is complete. I don't want anything else. I don't need anyone else.
I obtained the final one this afternoon, completely by accident, while I was enjoying a snowy walk to catch the bus. Those are the best surprises.... not even a hint that today would be the day. They've all been unexpected but today's was an extra special surprise since I truly thought I'd never get it. In my excitement I missed the bus. Actually, I got impatient, sent a quick text, and practically skipped back to my car long before the bus arrived at the station. I was hoping you could keep me company for the ride home, but it's ok...
This particular collection began 4 or 5 years ago. Someone wonderful I used to know filled my Ipod with music for adventuring and my inspiration was tucked neatly in the middle. After getting home from work this evening I got comfortable and spread them out in front of me. One at a time I picked each up, cradled it in the palm of my left hand, and smiled. Just that little bit of warmth on my hand is enough for me. My favorites include one from Tampa, Florida, one from a truck stop in Ohio on my birthday 2 years ago, one from a random day wandering NYC, my secret one from a fall day in Philly, and of course my new one from a snowy February day in DC. The new one feels funny, out of place almost, I'm not sure it's time for it but it's here now so I will keep it safe. And you say that I don't have this down. I've been practicing out loud.
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Three days ago I saw my first robin of the year and today the crocuses started breaking through the dirt. Soon the daffodils will be up. The waterfall never did freeze this winter. I wanted so badly to see that, closing my eyes and imagining how beautiful it must be as the weather got colder. Silly I know but I put myself to sleep on more than one occasion thinking about it and wishing I could just sit there and watch that last drop freeze on its way down. I remember some words and I revisit my treasures.
My mind wanders a lot now and very often it's to that waterfall. Part of me thinks, "There's always next year." Another part of me thinks, "It's a funny world where machines could replace people." I looked in the bathroom mirror today and noticed my collar bones are more pronounced then I've seen in a while and I can see the waves of my breast bone. My eyes are greener too, even when I'm not sad.
All the evidence points in one direction.....
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